I've been trying so hard to swim without my lifesaver.
I'm trying so hard to advance without a paddle.
I'm trying to learn how to swim alone without any advice from the lifeguard.
I get exhausted, so I'm sleepy all day long.
Sometimes my lungs fill with water, sometimes I'm doing so bad at swimming that I want to tell the lifeguard, but I shouldn't.
I have to learn how to swim without any encouragement from the lifeguard.
If I don't go out, I don't have to lie. I don't have to pretend.
So I stay inside as long as I can.
It's getting harder and harder to pretend.
I get so tired, all I wanna do is lay down and sleep, but I can't.
The happy version of me is taking vacations, so the gloomy version stepped out and it's not going well.
On top of it, the gloomy version wants what the happy version had, but it didn't know that that doesn't exist anymore. No touching, no caring, no closeness.
So the gloomy version gets gloomier, closes every door and demands to let happy version comeback only if it gets all the good things it's craving: love, attention, care.
So apparently, we're here for the long run.
The time machine in my head keeps going to the past.
It goes back in time but only to the good moments.
It Saves data from the past and replays it over and over, causing pain and rain.
Sometimes it saves the bad times too. But I still refuse to watch them.
I hope someday it turns off...
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