It's been a while since I screamed.
It feels better when I scream.
Surprised
And just like that
It didn't hurt anymore.
I was surprised of myself.
And felt kinda guilty
As I promised forever.
Be happy, child,
I know I'll try to be.
Costume
I've been wearing a costume, and nobody seem to notice I'm inside of it.
I've been wearing it for a long time. I can't remember for how long.
I only take it off when I'm home, And sometimes when someone it's interested in the real me.
The thing is, I can't go out without it.
And I'm a bit afraid people won't recognize me if i don't wear it.
Middle point
Happy and gloomy coexist for now.
Today I practiced self care. I made my legs shiver by myself.
I've been swimming by my own and it's getting a little better. Lifeguard was nowhere to be found.
My smile it's getting real more often, I barely have to pretend.