Bad day

 I wonder if is it bad to keep wanting things you can't ask for.

I wonder if I'm wrong for wanting to lean on to someone and let them know my worries.

But again, it's no one's obligation to make me feel happy, or secure or valuable, only me.

And yet...

Today is a bad day.

In my mind I have a lot of things I want to do, that need to be done, but my body wont move.

All I want to do is lay down and eat.

I'm on energy saving mode. My battery it's at a point where it asks for the charger, but there isn't one at reach.

I'll keep fighting this feeling, I've felt worse, this is nothing to me. 

Sometimes

 The thing is....

I've been taking care of people for quite a while. 

I make sure people are okay and safe and happy.

But sometimes, I wish I was the one being taken care of.

It's not an everyday thing, just, sometimes, I want to feel taken care of.

I want someone to worry about me.

I want words of reassurance.

I want hugs and cuddles.

I want kisses on the forehead.

I want meals cooked for me. 

I want someone to look at me as if I'm the most beautiful person in the world. 

Today is one of those days. 

I'll get over it, tomorrow, maybe.